I don’t want a boyfriend to make me feel like I’m not alone, I want a boyfriend because I’m ready for one. I want to someone who is unconditionally there for me as I am for them. Is it that much to ask for?
I only started to love cigarettes after we ended things. I fell in love with the taste of cigarettes when I needed something pressed against my lips, and it wasn’t your lips anymore. I feel in love I fell in love with the smell of cigarettes only to try to mask your smell left on my clothes, sheets, and pillows. I fell in love with cigarettes and how they made me feel invincible, like how you did. I feel in love with cigarettes and how they accompanied me like how you did. I only fell in love with cigarettes when I wasn’t yours anymore. I fell in love with cigarettes when I missing you was overwhelming. I guess you could say that missing you is killing me.